Sometimes I find myself in a hole of self doubt and self pity. I look up and I see the sky and how blue it is. How pretty it looks and how warm it must be, but I just don’t think I can make the climb. It’s going to hard and I might fall. I don’t want to mess up.
The Lord is there next to me telling me that He knows what is on the other end and it’s amazing. He is telling me it’s okay to make mistakes and to fall because He is right there to pick me up, and He knows I am not perfect. If the climb up to the top was easy then I wouldn’t be reliant on His strength but my own.
I can’t say that after I started this climb it was easy and it has been great the entire ride. Because it hasn’t been easy and I have wanted to pack up and leave so many times. The challenges I face are not like any I have faced before. They are scary and I don’t want the responsibilities that have been asked of me. I don’t find myself qualified or ready. I see a bunch of other people who would be better at this job then me. I don’t want to mess up and make life harder on everyone else around me. I want to seem strong and to look like I have everything under control.
God doesn’t want that… He wants me to be open with everyone around me so that we can help each other. To realize we aren’t perfect and that the Lord is truly in control and He will never leave us. He wants us to admit that we are weak and to cry out for His help. We don’t need to make ourselves seem okay just so people can view us as the strong ones. When inside we are dying slowly because of all the expectations we are putting on ourselves. The door is open the sky is blue, take hold of the ladder, see what the Lord has in store for you.
Don’t loose sight on the why we are here, and what our purpose is. It’s not about us, but about the Lord. To further His kingdom. #tilthewholeworldhears
“I would have lost heart, unless I had believed That I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living. Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!”