This is simple, pure, and completely true. I sometimes forget how small and childish I am. Then the Lord shows me this verse to remind me again. He is in control, not me. Today I was drawing with my kids. I stopped and just looked at them. My heart filled with love as their faces lit up to show me there drawings. My heart yearns to watch them grow up, and to see how the Lord is going to use each one. Every time I look at them I know that they are going to fall in love with the Lord.
There’s this pain in my heart every time I think about leaving. Why can’t I stay and watch them all, and continue to teach them? What is going to happen to them? What am I going to do next? The future seems so far away yet then it’s at the door step knocking at every passing moment. With every second that passes it becomes the past.
Lord has reminded me that the girl that hopped on the plane to Cambodia is definitely not the same girl who was in Guatemala. And absolutely not the same girl that was boarding the plane to Guatemala. My life seems different now, after living life in a different country. Yet, the one thing that hasn’t changed is Jesus. He is still the same, He still loves me, and still watches over me. I know more about Him, and the joy that He gives. I know more about His grace that He offers and about the trust I can have in Him. My trust in the Lord has grown these past couple of months. I know that the Lord is the same today as He was yesterday, I know that He is going to be the same tomorrow also. His love for me doesn’t change. I am resting in that promise, as the future looks mysterious. I know that Jesus is going to be by my side with every step that I take.