“The LORD on high is mightier Than the noise of many waters, Than the mighty waves of the sea.”
Lately, I have been struggling with fear. It’s not a bad fear… Yet, how can fear be good. It’s a fear that seems to be taking over me very softly. It comes so fast, that at times I seem to not be able to stop it. This is what pulls me away from the Lord. It doesn’t last long, and when it comes I normally stop and ask myself. “What do you have to be afraid of? Is not the Lord right there next to you?” I have been learning to stop and pray. Pray for everything and everyone to not stop praying. Lately I have been falling asleep while praying, but it is the only way that I will be able to sleep at night. It normally comes in the darkness of the night, when all is quiet and minutes feel like hours. It’s fear, but it’s lies that creep in to cause the fear. It’s lies that the enemy puts in my mind. It took me awhile to trust in God and to listen for His truths. I never realized of alive spiritual warfare is until coming here. I never really thought it was possible. Yet, now I am beginning to see that everyday I wake up…. The enemy wants to put me down. How do I stop from hearing the loudness of the waves? How do I stop hearing the lies that the Thought Caster puts into my head?
I fix me eyes on the Lord, even when it seems like the world around me is dragging me down. I need to remember to praise Him for everything He has given and done for me. He reminds me daily that our battle is not against flesh and blood. That we are fighting the powers of darkness. I am learning more about the Lord’s love for me. The Lord’s peace and His plan. There is nothing to be afraid of because our King and our Father is right next to us. The enemy has no power over God’s people. Fear has no place in my life, only love and trust in the Lord. “The Lord on high is mightier then the noise of many waters,” our God is mightier, He is powerful, and He is loving. When the waves seem to be too much for me to handle, it means that I need to be reminded. Reminded that the waves will always be too much for me to handle. With the Lord’s help and with His strength, nothing is too much.
It all seems repetitive to me, like I have been learning the same lesson for 6 months now. I remember in school that when a teacher repeats themselves than it is important. You should probably be paying attention to what they are saying. The Lord is my teacher, and even though He is repeating Himself, He wants me to understand. To understand His sovereignty, and His promises. To understand that He will never leave me nor forsake me. To understand that He died for me and that He loves me.
Remind me daily, moment by moment, second by second, that I need to praise You more. That I need to stop and thank You for the little blessings. Jesus You are watching over me, You are right beside me, and You love me. Thank You.
A: I will praise the Lord moment by moment. When I start to pray, it will start off by praising God for who He is.
“Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it.”
“Many enter through it.” If following Jesus and living your life for Him was easy then everyone would be doing it. “Enter through the narrow gate.” Take the path less travelled… Even if it seems like the rest of the world is telling you not to go that way… Yet you know in your heart that this path is what the Lord is telling me to take. Then take it…. Don’t second guess that small voice in your head. Pay attention to the little signs that the Lord is showing you. It is going to be hard, it is going to be scary at times, you are going to want to turn around and take the easy way. Please don’t…. Stay strong and press on. All those people who are on the broad road that leads to the wide gate, they aren’t listening to the Lord. He has His arms outstretched for them. He is ready to take them in as soon as the acknowledge that He is Lord, but they have set their course to destruction. There are so many that are just following the crowd… They don’t understand where they are going but they know that since their friends are doing it they must too. Yet they are wrong…. They are being deceived… They don’t understand what the Lord has done for them. “Enter through the narrow get,” your path is going to be difficult, there will be fallen trees, there will big giants pits in the way, and there might be snakes or other wild animals. They are put in your path for distraction, that you might give up on what the Lord has called you too do. Don’t let them intimidate you, for your God is stronger, and greater. But in verse 14 “Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.” Your small, thorn covered path leads to life. He tells you right away that it is going to be difficult, but it’s at the end of your path that you enter into life. It might not seem like it. You might want to cry, but do it. The Lord knows your fears, He knows your troubles, and He knows your thoughts. When you finally throw your hands up in surrender, that is when the Lord steps in and give you the strength. When you finally realize that you can’t do it anymore the Lord wraps you in a tight hug and says, “I know you can’t, but with My help you can. Trust in Me and I will make your paths straight.” Take Him by the hand and hold on tight, because you can do all things through Him who strengthens you. You are a child of God, the God who saved the Israel for Egypt, that fed the 5,000, the one that swallowed a man alive in a fish, the God that flooded the whole earth, and the God that calmed to the storm. He is the same powerful God back in the Bible as He is today.
He has been telling me lately too stop trying to be like everyone else. Stop following everyone around like a lost dog. Be brave, my path is different then the girls I am living with. God is going to show me something different then what He is going to show them. I need to stop trying to see and learn the same things as everyone. I need to take a deep breathe and look up at the Lord. For He is at my right hand and I shall not be shaken. My God loves me, because He is my Creator and Savior. I need to listen to only His voice, and His words. Not the voices telling me to take the easy way, because I want life! I want to go to Heaven and just praise His name forever. I want to sing praises to Him all the time forever and ever. It’s nice reminder that this is not my home… Beverly MA is not my home….. Antigua GUA is not my home…. and Phnom Penh Cambodia is not my home. My home is heaven and right now I am just passing through. Following the path that the Lord has given me and trusting Him. He knows what He is doing.