My Shepherd


Micah 5:4
And He shall stand and feed His flock, In the strength of the Lord. In the majesty of the name of the Lord His God, and they shall abide for now He shall be great. To the ends of the earth.

This past couple of days I have been mediating on the fact that the Lord is my Shepherd. Not only is He my Shepherd yet He is the Good Shepherd. Psalms 23:1 “The Lord is my Shepherd; I shall not want.” “And He shall stand and feed His flock, in the strength of the Lord.” Feeding His flock… Standing with His people feeding them His word. This whole trip so far the Lord has been telling me to trust in Him and to put my faith in Him. For some reason I was stuck thinking that some how I had to figure everything out on my own. I wasnt putting my faith into God. Trying to do everything on my own gets trying and sometimes I give up. The bad days, bad thoughts, or bad attitudes come and they seems to soak into my pores. Then all I want to do is sit and give up… stay in my bad mood. Ephesians 6:13 “Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and done all, to stand.” The armor of God, one of my new favorite passages in the Bible. You have the belt of truth, the breastplate of righteousness, the shoes of peace, the shield of faith, the helmet of salvation, and finally the God’s word as the sword. The thing that the Lord showed me this week is that yes you may be able to use the God’s word as the sword. But most importantly I need to be living in His word. The Lord feeds His flock with His word. Deuteronomy 8:3 “So He humbled you, allowed you to hunger, and fed you with manna which you did not know nor did your fathers know, that He might make you know that man shall not live by bread alone; but man LIVES by EVERY word that proceeds from the mouth of the Lord.” If I am not filling myself or soaking in the word of the Lord. Soon that sword will become heavy in my hand, and the armor will start to become too big. It won’t fit right anymore, because my spiritual walk with the Lord is lacking. I can’t do it on my own strength… Psalm 119:28 “My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according to Your word.” Then with the armor too big there is easy access to me for the devil. That is why I need to be daily soaking in the bread that the Lord is giving me. That I can be ready with my shield of faith and breastplate of righteousness. Any attack that the enemy throws my way I know that the Lord is with me and I can stand in peace, because He will never leave me. He is my King and I am His daughter. You best believe that a daughter of a king has training and knows how to swing the sword. But I also have my Protector, my Shepherd, my Creator, and my Strength that watches over to me that I may find my rest in Him. Knowing that His eyes and Angels are watching over me.
A: I am really going to soak in every word that the Lord shows me. I am not just going to do morning devotions but also nightly ones too.


The Waves


“I am astonished that you are so quickly deserting the one who called you to live in the grace of Christ and are turning to a different gospel—”
‭‭Galatians‬ ‭1:6‬ ‭

This was an accident…. This verse wasn’t suppose to be done, yet here is what the Lord is showing me through it. It’s not a different gospel… It’s more of something else is taking my attention. It’s crazy…. Here I am in a foreign country. Surrounded by people I have only known for about 5 months. The country I am in, I never thought of or heard of growing up. Yet I feel at home. I feel blessed to be here. I am amazed at the power the Lord has. To take me from my comfort to put me in an uncomfortable place…. Now I am comfortable again. I am learning this week or the Lord is showing me that I need to focus on Him. My eyes need to be forever on Him. I find myself looking at things that are fading or that really doesn’t need my attention… Yet I give it anyway. I find that I start to turn too what is comfortable to me. Psalm 119:37 “Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to Your word.”
‭‭I am focusing too much on my needs and wants… I start to get distracted by my fears… By trying to figure out everything before it actually happens. The Lord is telling me that I need to look to Him. Lately, I have noticed that my devotional life with the Lord has been slaking that I am easily torn away from my time with Him. My prayer life has been becoming short. Never do I take myself away and just spend one on one time with my Heavenly Father. I feel like I am getting caught up in the things of what I need to do and that I am forgetting the reason that I am here. I am forgetting about the relationship that I need to be growing with my Father, my Creator. It’s not that I am turning to a different religion it’s more of the fact that other things are taking my attention. Yet it is so easy for them to get in front of my view and my eyes are off the Lord.
We did a skit today about Peter walking on water. Peter’s faith in Jesus was so strong but then as soon as his eyes left Jesus and saw the waves Peter began to sink. Peter was swallowed up by fear and by the things of this world. Yet my favorite part is that immediately Jesus reached out and pulled Peter out of the water. The Lord is always there for us, all we need to do is call on Him. Jeremiah 33:3 “Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.” Call to Him… Peter cried out when he began to sink and the Lord answered. Almost immediately Jesus reached out and grabbed his hand saving Peter from the sea. The sea of the world… The sea of worries, lies, and distractions. The Lord has helped me in so many ways all I need to do is ask… To call out to Him and He will answer. That is how much He loves me.

Crazy For Christ

Mark 15:15
So Pilate, wanting to gratify the crowd, released Barabbas to them; and delivered Jesus, after he had scourged Him, to be crucified.
My first reaction to this verse was confusion. How was the Lord going to talk through this verse. It wasn’t until I read it for the second time that the Lord hit me. It says “Pilate, wanting to gratify the crowd.” It’s all too often that I catch myself doing things just so that I can please the people around me. Not like the girls I am living with, this is coming from the past. That might have even followed me to Cambodia. Making it hard for me to do the will of the Lord when I am too busy worrying about what people might think of me. I like to put myself in the shoes of Pilate, and I wonder if I would do the same thing that he did. Pilate was amazed with Jesus. I mean Pilate couldn’t find anything wrong with Jesus. Jesus was innocent in his eyes… Yet he released a man that was a murder. All because he wanted to please the crowd… I can’t help but think…. Pilate killed the Son of God, because he wanted to please man. How many times a day do I kill the Son of God, because I am scared of what people might think of me? 1 Thessalonians 2:4 “But as we have been approved by God to be entrusted with the gospel, even so we speak, not as pleasing men, but God who tests our hearts.” I can’t believe how well that verse fits into what I was talking about. It’s so true, God has entrusted us with the gospel… And not to mention the fact that we have been approved by God also. God picked us to spread the gospel and tell everyone we meet. We aren’t doing out of our own evil ambitions, or our own sick minds. My God knows my thoughts and He knows my heart. I can’t hide anything from Him. He knows when I am doing something for Him or for my own selfishness. This is my next question, then why is it my issue is trying to make the people around me happy? Why if I know that the Lord knows my thoughts and heart, do I focus more on pleasing everyone else? John 15:19 “If you were of the world, the world would love it’s own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.” The world hates me… The world is covered in darkness and it hates light…. Not just any light, but the light that came into the world to save it from the darkness. The light that is inside me. The light that I need to stay focused on… People should see me as crazy, they should see that there is something different. My heart should be focused on the Lord that nothing could change it except Him, I am His pot and He is my potter. 2 Corinthians 5:13 “For if we are beside ourselves, it is for God; Or if we are of sound mind, it is for you.” I don’t want to be like Pilate and kill the Son of God, just so the people will like me. I need to do what the Lord wants me to do. How crazy it might sound… At least it is for the Lord and not from my own self.